I did not expect that I would tear up in worship this morning. But, it dawned on me as the songs began that this is Pam’s first Easter in heaven. While we sang of the death, burial and resurrection of Jesus, I could not see what she was seeing and experiencing today. I could only imagine in faith.
How much better is Easter for Pam today? It is perfection for her now! She is looking at the savior, Jesus, who gave his life here on earth to purchase her salvation and give her the place she is in now, heaven! She is most likely singing and worshiping just the same, while we are here.
Then I remembered the Sunday two days after she went to heaven. I was walking in our back field. Pam loved that two and a half acre field. She loved picking the wild flowers while riding her power chair or scooter around the field and watching our dog weave in and out of the tall grass with the flowers waving in the breeze.
But, that day Pam was not there. I was there alone. I was crying and screaming in the pain of loss. In time, I quietened so I could hear God speak. I needed to hear from Him. Suddenly, I had a vision flash in my mind. I saw Pam running through the field with no chair or scooter in sight! I smiled with the tears flowing harder! She was free from the prison of her body that held her for so many years. It was her prayer and dream which had now come true.
In that field, on that July day, my tears of pain flowed even though she was healed. Today, my tears are of joy worshiping in spirit with my beautiful Pamela Joy. It is just that she is worshiping in heaven and I am worshiping here on earth. She sees Jesus face to face. I see Him by faith.
“It’s not that we don’t have pain, sorrows, grief and trials here on earth, but in the midst of these things Jesus speaks to us here and now!” Jason Malone – Fellowship Greenville – 4-9-2023