“Dad, I am going to join the Army.”
Dreams
How often do you remember your dreams with vivid clarity after you wake up? How often do you remember them well over a year later with the same clarity?
One Year
One year ago today Pamela Joy arrived in heaven to find complete healing in God’s perfect love which she longed for over so many years. Many days in the past year, I had to talk with her as if she was still sitting beside me. Was she? No. Could I still express my thoughts as…
Worship… in Spite of Pain
The sunlight of day came through the window, but I felt dark. It was pleasingly warm, but I was cold inside. In my bedroom, I dressed beside the empty bed. Then I brushed my teeth in the bathroom which haunted me. My wife was gone. Her death the previous day left me with a vast…
Road to Understanding Honor
On the narrow back road leading to our small town, Dad was driving his 1953 Dodge four door sedan to the building supply store with a fifty-five gallon drum in the trunk. I was now four years old, standing proudly in the front seat tucked behind my dad’s right shoulder as we rounded the curves…
Mother’s Love
I have published this several years on Mother’s Day for Pamela. This year, I want to dedicate it to all mothers. It amazes me. Mothers show such incredible love every day all the while wondering if they have loved enough. Mothers come as different as snowflakes, and they become mothers in more than one way. …
The Field of New Life
I did not expect that I would tear up in worship this morning. But, it dawned on me as the songs began that this is Pam’s first Easter in heaven. While we sang of the death, burial and resurrection of Jesus, I could not see what she was seeing and experiencing today. I could only…
The Piece that Brought Peace
“I can’t conceive how it can work.” I fumbled for words. The office was humble and modest. Brown sat in the chair which was angled at forty-five degrees from the wall on the right side of the window. I sat in a similar chair angled at forty-five degrees from the same wall on the other…
What about Valentine’s Day
I sat in my apartment dumbfounded. What should I do about Valentine’s Day? Or, should I do nothing? I remembered asking that question many times in my life. You know what I mean. What kid has not questioned who to give a special valentine to at school? As a teenager, we are terrified to give…
Just Because & Thank You
Just Because The picture above is of Pamela Joy Baker taken on the day we were married, 1-14-1995. Actually it was taken before the ceremony, so technically it is of Pamela Joy Hartman. I never saw this picture until the day I was pulling pictures together for her funeral service. Now, it is one of…